Problems controlling/sustaining my emotional responses?

Welcome to my world. I can relate very much so. I try now to avoid people at all cost. I have a mood disorder & social anxiety(SAD). My emotions tend to be extreme either up or down. Now I'm afraid to interact with people b/c of this. I don't mean anybody any harm. I think I say stupid things or I may take what someone says to personal. And I wish I would die for being so stupid. I don't say anything to anybody anymore b/c I'm afraid of "f" ing things up. I have to stay around positive people, negative people tend to push me over the edge. It freaking sucks being me. My Doctor has put me on all types of meds....no luck so far. They sent me to therapy....has helped a little. I haven't gave up yet. I want a so called "normal" life too. I feel your pain your not only. You should check out a out patient program in your neighborhood.....Like Centerstone( mental health place) if you haven't already. I will be thinking of you....later